I’m bummed out; I like to use this for my writing and not for standard pictures and mindless rants. hum-diddly-um

Only mine until 
the time comes round 
to pay the bill. 
Then I’m afraid. 
What can’t be paid 
must be returned. 
You never, ever learn, 
that nothing’s yours, 
on easy terms. 

Only for a time, 
i must not learn, 
to call you mine. 

Familiarise 
that face, those eyes 
make future plans 
that cannot be confirmed 
on borrowed time, 
on easy terms. 

Living on the never never, 
constant as the changing weather, 
never sure 
who’s at the door 
or the price I’ll have to pay 
should we meet again 
i will not recognise your name. 
You can be sure 
what’s gone before 
will be concealed. 
Your friends will never learn 
that once we were 
on easy terms. 

Living on the never never, 
constant as the changing weather, 
never sure 
who’s at the door 
or the price I’ll have to pay… 

Shall we meet again?
Will I be reunited with your wild rare beauty?
Familiarise: that delicate face, those dark captivating eyes.
Skin warm and fair; so fragile in my hands yet I chose to protect you. Forever.
I am but a shadow now, I am no longer me.
I am but a whisper, lost in a mass of pleas.
Give her back to me. Please I beg, give back Miss Earnshaw to I, Heathcliff.

Are you mine? Were you ever? False pretences and blurred desires.
Potential heartache,  if a love like this burns out like a fire.
Ashes. Gone.
No evidence that you were here or ever mine. I’m so alone. It’s so cold now. Return to me flickering flame.
Taken. Stolen. Broken.
Nothing is ever yours on easy terms,
You promised me. Why would you ever leave me? I traced the moors for your footsteps,  anything to prove I was not deluded; something as perfect as you was real.
Despised. Un loveable. Emotionless
But you, you saw in me what I could not myself. A thousand questions as to why. What that kind soul of yours saw in I.
I am but a ghost; haunted without you there.
I am but a prisoner; hung, drawn and squared.
My mind misgives, I prithee release me. No more!

A demon tickles and sweetens my ear as I seek revenge and justice. Justice. Ha! This creature is awakening my blind eyes and dominating my foolish pitiful mind:
You never did love me Cathy.
Like a queen bee you needed many suitors to feel any worth - Why stop at one?
Inadequate Heathcliff.
I am but a pawn in your chess set, a measly sacrifice
I am but a fly in your web, tangled in your cruel web of lies.

Damn you Cathy! I loathe you, I detest you, I hate you. Your selfish cruel and taunting ways. You don’t feel anything for me do you? You do not want me yet you cannot bear to see me with someone else. You can tear apart every human heart as long as your own is in tact. You are nothing.

Yet I still need you; I love you. I hate you. Show yourself to me, I wait.

“Kiss me again, but don’t let me see your eyes! I forgive what you have done to me. I love my murderer- but yours! How can I?”

myinkstainedheart:

Just like gravity,
falling’s inevitable,
love, unstoppable.

Unlike gravity,
whose arms you’ll fall, where you’ll land’s
unpredictable.

Gravity impaired,
you fell but on a cloud’s boat
you hitched, stayed afloat.

I understand. I’ll leave. I promise, hand on heart.
Before I go, just know I really did mean it each time

I told you I love you; from the first time to the last.

I didn’t mean to hurt you; I only wanted to make you smile I swear,

I didn’t mean to make harder times worse;

I wanted you to know that you have someone who cares,

When I told you that you mean the world to me I meant it.

I wanted to be your 24 hour super hero and never intended to quit,

each time I told you, you deserve the world

I wanted to provide you with that and more,

Every day you felt like giving up on everything, I wanted to give you something to fight for,

Each day you felt like you had nobody to turn to, I wanted to be your first port of call,

Every time you felt like taking a risk

I wanted to be the one to catch you if you ever began to fall.
Through those times you felt like nobody understood you,

I wanted to try.

I didn’t mean to cause you any tears;

I love you too much to make you cry.

I just wanted to make you happy, now that you’re not with me….

I’m so sorry that I tried.

myinkstainedheart:

I search for the warmth in eyes
and the smile that lips comprised,
among frames, images stolen,
from moments gone but golden.
This is where my eyes will reach,
when my weary heart beseech
company in days so lonesome,
when I am too worn to be blithesome.
So always save me a piece
of you captured in distilled bliss.
When my heart is sinking in waters, vile,
my only salvation, my only buoy is your smile.